Letter from a Delinquent Daughter-

God;
It has been awhile since I have last really spent some quality time with you. I know that you have plans for our lives and that you do take special interest in each of us (Jer. 29:11). I know that you desire for everything that I do would bring you glory (1 Cor. 10:31). I know that faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of those things we don't see (Heb. 11:1). I know that if we commit our ways to you, you will give us the desires of our hearts (Ps. 37:4).

These promises are ones that I want to cling to; and yet I know that you see us for who we are. And for me I know that means that you see me as a prideful person who desires selfishly and wants control of her own; to know all things and who will not walk in confidence until I do know these things for sure. You see that I don't trust well, but at the same time you know that the depths of me desire to do these things better. You know that my heart is restless and waiting:

Closer to Me by Future of Forestry-

I wish I could feel all the strength of your peace
Inside me, building love endlessly
I wish I could fall in a sea of your light
While the brilliance around me, watch it chase away night

Closer to me
Oh, I want you to be
Even closer to me

I wish I could feel just the warmth of your breath
Around me as I lie on my bed
I wish I could taste of your sweet ruby wine
As you lift me to heaven, to the place where we shine

Closer to me
Oh, I want you to be
Just closer to me

For the day I await
'Cause my heart knows I've found you
And I'm still looking for you
Yeah, the day I await
'Cause my heart knows I've found
And I'm still looking for you

You call us to seek you with all of our hearts; you say, search me and you will know me...when you seek me you will find me when you seek with all your heart. Heb. 11:6 says, “And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.” So I do know that I've found you and that I continue to seek you to draw closer to you... Forgive me for where I fall short and where my pride gets in the way. Forgive me for my lack of faith at times. Teach me every day to trust you more.

Ps. 25:2-5
“O my God, in you I trust; let me not be put to shame;
let not my enemies exult over me.
Indeed, none who wait for you shall be put to shame;
they shall be ashamed who are wantonly treacherous.
Make me to know your ways, O Lord;
teach me your paths.
Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation;
for you I wait all the day long.”

You have given me the work of my hands and have placed responsibilities before me. These things Lord, I seek to do before you with utmost honesty and truth. I know that I may never walk in complete faithfulness on this earth but I do love you and I do seek to learn more and more how to love you better and more completely.

Lover by Nevertheless-

I am a lover. I am a shame. I am appalled by the things that I fame.
I am a lover, but I've had my share of flirting with the darkest affairs.
And you can find me here, with my head against the wall, lost in my regrets and every time I fall you catch me in your hands.
You circle me like a wedding band. I have a lover, faithful and true.
He cares for me in all that I do.
I have a lover, my song He has sung with love on His lips and grace on His tongue.
And you can find me here with my head against the wall, lost in my regrets and every time I fall you catch me in your hands.
You circle me like a wedding band.
A promise from Heaven, a promise from You, a promise to love, I will hold on to.
God of new beginnings, to You I cry, Teach me how to love; teach me how to die.
In death there's forgiveness, and forgiveness calls on new life. So You can find me here with my head against the wall, lost in my regrets and every time I fall you catch me in your hands. You circle me like a wedding band. A promise from Heaven, a promise from You...

I commit myself to learn more and more about you. My desire is to serve you better each day with a more fervent heart. Place people in my life to challenge me in these areas.

A letter from a delinquent daughter,
Love.

“One thing have I asked of the Lord,
that I will seek after:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord
and to inquire in his temple.” Psalm 27:4